SuKa
Apr 29th, 2005, 02:11 PM
Dear Father,
Hey Daddy, how are you? It's me, your daughter. You probably knew that but I just thought I'd state the obvious because this is most likely going to turn into some long and dragging-on letter that you might lose interest in so lemme just say now I love you in case you don't find it in here somewhere later. It's been years since I last saw you but it feels like you just went back to work and I'm waiting for the end of the week for you to come visit! How time flies. I remember how you used to come get me every Friday and it feels like I wait everyday. That's why every Friday I go to the mall so I don't have to torture myself like I did before I became a mall rat when you didn't come in the old, red piece of junk to get me. But all the time I think about how we could be playing Sonic or I could watch you beat up Alex in Tekken 2. But that's all in the past because you're dead after all. But hey, things like that never seemed to stop you, I'm sure you're smiling wherever you are.
Hey Daddy, you remember that day you wanted to visit the Delaware water gap? You just got up that morning and out of the blue told Poppy that you wanted to go fishing and Poppy didn't think twice to get the fishing rods. Off we rode! We didn't catch a single fish that day, did we? Ha, that one fish Poppy caught with his hands, remember? The one that rolled over in the water and pretended to play dead as Poppy caught it? He let it go because he thought it was diseased but it just swam away! Big fish too, you probably would have cooked it yourself, haha. Remember how we came home and all of a sudden you started crying? I never understood why you cried, we were all trying to ask you what was wrong and all you did was apologize for being so random and stupid. Haha, I took it from you Dad, I'm just like that today! I don't think we ever regretted that day at all.
Remember that huge jar of pennies you used to have? Yeah, I remember the day you finally wanted to cash it in. You told me to strap up and we put it in your leather back-bag (I still have that; I use it but it could use some repairs!) and I carried it as we walked to the bank. Remember how much cash came out of those pennies? A whole $7.52. We bought ice cream and fed the geese. Remember that day? When we went to go feed the geese, they all crowded around us! We tried to scare them away but they all saw the shopping bag and only got closer and closer. Haha, we screamed so loud, we probably woke up the entire place.
Remember by 10th birthday? You planned it all out for me and decided that we would go to PA and visit Hershey Park and the Medieval Fair. That was the best birthday ever, you took me to the caverns and got me that amazing crystal rock I still have. I remember walking through the caves and you told Alex not to lean over or else his glasses would fall into the water. I remember that little house that we rented in the trailer park. Mommy said it was bigger than the place you and she lived in, haha, I remember her complaining. Thanks for the N64; I play it all the time still. I'm still waiting to beat Mario with you. Remember Hershey Park? They gave us those HUGE chocolate bars and none of us could finish them! The Fair was amazing. Hey, Dad, remember how I won the "slaying of the dragon?" You got it on film too; I was the only one in line that got the javelin through the ring while riding that horse suspended in the air. I remember you giving me back my flute as we danced over the fake plastic coin that I got. I remember winning that fish that you didn't let me keep because you told me I would be sad if it died. I remember coming back to the rented house and finding the mice. You and me were so scared and Alex let out the ferrets and killed the mice with rat poison. It was the craziest summer ever, thanks tons.
Hey Dad, remember when you used to live in Paterson? Of course you do, remember when you took me with you for lunch? We did so many father-daughter things; I miss them all the time. Mostly because there's no one to really do them with anymore. Ah, but, I remember when you took me to the restaurant near where you worked. I love their little hot dogs! They were so good! You served me like a real customer and told me about meeting the vice president and then even took me to the rose garden. You taught me how to feed the squirrels at the garden. They came right to me and took away the peanuts I had! Remember when you took me to Central Park? You took me to that Pyramid Playground day after day...I loved going in the top of the pyramid and down the ladder inside. You and Mom would make bets to see which side of the pyramid I would come out of...You always told me which one you bet so I could let you win! I always wanted you to win, even at chess. You were so good at chess. I still have that chess set we used to play on but there's no one for me to play with so it's been in the closet next to the pink and green trainer skates you got me...
Dad... do you remember the pictures? The wall in your apartment? Every time we would come home from wherever you would take us, from the Central Park or to the Museum of Natural History, you had me draw a picture of something that we saw or learned or something new that we picked up. You put them on your wall to the point that we couldn't see the wall at all! When you moved, you stored them in the bottom cabinet. Mom threw them out after you left, but I still remember the animals I drew and the war scenes you did. I can't even count all the places you took us. Daddy, you got me into writing poetry, remember? You would tell me how amazing each poem I wrote was and typed them all up for me and hung them on the wall too. Remember the one you helped me with? "If you don't go when nature calls, in your pants you'll have Niagara Falls?" I still remember that and it's still really funny to me! We came up with the weirdest poems ever.
Dad, remember how you made me go to sleep if I couldn't sleep? "Your cute little nose, your cute little eyes, your cute little ears...." When I was scared you would do that for me. Thanks, I still remember you poking my nose as you said it. It made me laugh to sleep instead of be scared, so I appreciate that a lot. Remember when you got me Hammy?? He was the cutest hamster in the world, wasn't he? Remember how he was just a little black ball? I wasn't there when he died, sorry. Remember how we almost lost Hammy once? We went looking for him everywhere and you and me even went into the middle of the road to look for him. Turns out he was stuck inside the couch, remember? He was so funny. You were so funny. I even remember once, this really really long time ago, when I was little? My teacher asked me "what can your father do?" This was WAY back, in like, elementary school. I said "He can cook chicken!" But you couldn't cook too much else, right? Haha, I remember all the frozen meals. I still loved them though, thanks for trying.
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Hey Daddy, how are you? It's me, your daughter. You probably knew that but I just thought I'd state the obvious because this is most likely going to turn into some long and dragging-on letter that you might lose interest in so lemme just say now I love you in case you don't find it in here somewhere later. It's been years since I last saw you but it feels like you just went back to work and I'm waiting for the end of the week for you to come visit! How time flies. I remember how you used to come get me every Friday and it feels like I wait everyday. That's why every Friday I go to the mall so I don't have to torture myself like I did before I became a mall rat when you didn't come in the old, red piece of junk to get me. But all the time I think about how we could be playing Sonic or I could watch you beat up Alex in Tekken 2. But that's all in the past because you're dead after all. But hey, things like that never seemed to stop you, I'm sure you're smiling wherever you are.
Hey Daddy, you remember that day you wanted to visit the Delaware water gap? You just got up that morning and out of the blue told Poppy that you wanted to go fishing and Poppy didn't think twice to get the fishing rods. Off we rode! We didn't catch a single fish that day, did we? Ha, that one fish Poppy caught with his hands, remember? The one that rolled over in the water and pretended to play dead as Poppy caught it? He let it go because he thought it was diseased but it just swam away! Big fish too, you probably would have cooked it yourself, haha. Remember how we came home and all of a sudden you started crying? I never understood why you cried, we were all trying to ask you what was wrong and all you did was apologize for being so random and stupid. Haha, I took it from you Dad, I'm just like that today! I don't think we ever regretted that day at all.
Remember that huge jar of pennies you used to have? Yeah, I remember the day you finally wanted to cash it in. You told me to strap up and we put it in your leather back-bag (I still have that; I use it but it could use some repairs!) and I carried it as we walked to the bank. Remember how much cash came out of those pennies? A whole $7.52. We bought ice cream and fed the geese. Remember that day? When we went to go feed the geese, they all crowded around us! We tried to scare them away but they all saw the shopping bag and only got closer and closer. Haha, we screamed so loud, we probably woke up the entire place.
Remember by 10th birthday? You planned it all out for me and decided that we would go to PA and visit Hershey Park and the Medieval Fair. That was the best birthday ever, you took me to the caverns and got me that amazing crystal rock I still have. I remember walking through the caves and you told Alex not to lean over or else his glasses would fall into the water. I remember that little house that we rented in the trailer park. Mommy said it was bigger than the place you and she lived in, haha, I remember her complaining. Thanks for the N64; I play it all the time still. I'm still waiting to beat Mario with you. Remember Hershey Park? They gave us those HUGE chocolate bars and none of us could finish them! The Fair was amazing. Hey, Dad, remember how I won the "slaying of the dragon?" You got it on film too; I was the only one in line that got the javelin through the ring while riding that horse suspended in the air. I remember you giving me back my flute as we danced over the fake plastic coin that I got. I remember winning that fish that you didn't let me keep because you told me I would be sad if it died. I remember coming back to the rented house and finding the mice. You and me were so scared and Alex let out the ferrets and killed the mice with rat poison. It was the craziest summer ever, thanks tons.
Hey Dad, remember when you used to live in Paterson? Of course you do, remember when you took me with you for lunch? We did so many father-daughter things; I miss them all the time. Mostly because there's no one to really do them with anymore. Ah, but, I remember when you took me to the restaurant near where you worked. I love their little hot dogs! They were so good! You served me like a real customer and told me about meeting the vice president and then even took me to the rose garden. You taught me how to feed the squirrels at the garden. They came right to me and took away the peanuts I had! Remember when you took me to Central Park? You took me to that Pyramid Playground day after day...I loved going in the top of the pyramid and down the ladder inside. You and Mom would make bets to see which side of the pyramid I would come out of...You always told me which one you bet so I could let you win! I always wanted you to win, even at chess. You were so good at chess. I still have that chess set we used to play on but there's no one for me to play with so it's been in the closet next to the pink and green trainer skates you got me...
Dad... do you remember the pictures? The wall in your apartment? Every time we would come home from wherever you would take us, from the Central Park or to the Museum of Natural History, you had me draw a picture of something that we saw or learned or something new that we picked up. You put them on your wall to the point that we couldn't see the wall at all! When you moved, you stored them in the bottom cabinet. Mom threw them out after you left, but I still remember the animals I drew and the war scenes you did. I can't even count all the places you took us. Daddy, you got me into writing poetry, remember? You would tell me how amazing each poem I wrote was and typed them all up for me and hung them on the wall too. Remember the one you helped me with? "If you don't go when nature calls, in your pants you'll have Niagara Falls?" I still remember that and it's still really funny to me! We came up with the weirdest poems ever.
Dad, remember how you made me go to sleep if I couldn't sleep? "Your cute little nose, your cute little eyes, your cute little ears...." When I was scared you would do that for me. Thanks, I still remember you poking my nose as you said it. It made me laugh to sleep instead of be scared, so I appreciate that a lot. Remember when you got me Hammy?? He was the cutest hamster in the world, wasn't he? Remember how he was just a little black ball? I wasn't there when he died, sorry. Remember how we almost lost Hammy once? We went looking for him everywhere and you and me even went into the middle of the road to look for him. Turns out he was stuck inside the couch, remember? He was so funny. You were so funny. I even remember once, this really really long time ago, when I was little? My teacher asked me "what can your father do?" This was WAY back, in like, elementary school. I said "He can cook chicken!" But you couldn't cook too much else, right? Haha, I remember all the frozen meals. I still loved them though, thanks for trying.
(Cont. In next post)